March 6th, 2021

To be honest there are so many things I feel like writing about, that I think it’s best to wait until I’m ready to deep dive into one thing. I love calling myself a “writer.” I dont write everyday, but everyday I think about what I can write. I enjoy it so much when I really get into it. A professor of mine once said the best writers often write scarcely, because spending time thinking about how to articulate what you want to say is half the battle. Of course I’m paraphrasing. And so was he. But it made me realize I’m a writer.

I love reading anonymous blogs and exerts about other people’s lives. I love reading about someone’s day or the weird thing that happened to them at the grocery, or the interaction they had with a stranger, or the fight they got through with their significant other. All of it. Is this nosy? They’re the ones who put it out there. I love reading about people’s emotions and what they’re feeling in the moment. I love seeing people write how they’re maybe not ok right now, but how they know they will be ok. Probably because that’s what runs through my head all the time. There are good days and bad ones, my biggest stride has been being able to tell myself, “I don’t feel ok in this moment but I will.” It’s helped me from going into a dark place.

I digress.

I think people— how they think and what they’re passionate about, is the most interesting thing in the world. Maybe that’s why I got my degree is journalism. My favorite pieces were always the profiles. I’d sit in someone else’s space and let them go on about what they’re passionate about, and make something tangible out of it. I always wanted the people I interviewed — (which to be honest sometimes I hate calling it an interview because that sounds too stiff)— to see how fucking cool they were. Everyone is cool, sometimes it just takes something like an article or video to put it into sight.

I wanted to make something that the, for lack of a better term, subject, could look at and think— “thats me and I’m pretty cool.” I want people to know that their story, their life, their interests, their hobbies, and they themselves, are so interesting and so important.

Maybe that’s why I started a podcast. I think I’m less interested in the business of uncovering secrets and more into story telling. My favorite professor always told me I had an act for finding the heart in any story. I didn’t really get what she meant till this moment. Huh. After doing a few too many local news packages in a small town, I realized everything can be touching if you really want it to be.

I can’t wait to bring on more of my friends to the pod to talk about their lives and what they love. My friends are my rocks and I want them to know how much I love them and what they mean to me. The best way I can show it is to make something for them to watch or read that highlights their best qualities. Often times their best qualities are the ones they think are the most simple and seemingly mundane.

When I’m writing I’ll go until it feels like its finished. I don’t feel the need to sum up this blog in a conclusion paragraph with points taken from each part reminding the reader of what they just read, because for gods sake this isn’t grade school and I always hated their forced structure on my creative outlet. Writing is subjective after all. I write so maybe people can feel something, not so I can tell them something. I get that teaching kids in school that a conclusion paragraph is often needed and of course important to know how to do, and writing for work or someone else permits their structure; but I always felt that the “recapping, summing up” structure always, ALWAYS ruined my work. It wasn’t my style. There’s such a thing as good grammar not “good writing.” There is no template for “good writing,” otherwise we’d all be Stephen King. People didn’t like his writing at first either, until one day they did. That’s pretty cool.